“I am sorry, please forgive me,” realizing her mistake, she was pleading while her lips quivered with tension.
He nonchalantly and coolly replied, “That’s okay. It doesn’t matter.”
“I know it doesn’t matter to you and you’re fine with it and all that, but it matters to me.”
“Apparently not.” His stoic reaction cut through her. Sharply.
“Oh please, save the sarcasm for some other time. Please, I request you, please give it to me.”
He wasn’t in a mood of a fight or an argument. “Look, it’s okay, it’s not such a big deal.”
She was worried that this silence may bring more chaos later. “It is. It is a big deal.
I know you’re indifferent and you can let it go but it’s disturbing me.”
Giving her an another chance to let it go. “Excuse me?”
“Look, I know you’re so indifferent and disattached and…”
“Unattached,” he said again with a straight expressionless face.
“Ugh. Can you stop being a grammar nazi while we are having a serious discussion?!” She said exasperated.
Losing it again, “Gawd, why are you so aloof all the time?!”
“Fine! I know you’re so indifferent and *stresses* unattached and it doesn’t matter to you and you can let it go so easily that.. That, it is disturbing. And scary. Sometimes I feel, god forbid, if something happens tomorrow, you wouldn’t blink an eye before losing me. You wouldn’t just feel anything. You wouldn’t cry bucketful for losing me. I’m scared that you wouldn’t miss me at all. And that gives me goosebumps. More than your passionate touch does.”
*Raises an eye with a questioning look*
“Stop that. I know it’s not the appropriate time to reveal that and I have a reputation of putting my foot in my mouth time and again in front of you.”
*Comes forward to touch her*
“Stay back. I want to have this discussion first.”
“See? I fu*king love this smile of yours and the feeling it gives me in my tummy. I love 1000 different things of you for 1000 different reasons. And I am always scared that you’ll leave me and go away. More than that, I’m scared that you wouldn’t feel a thing. That you will get over me easily and live your life normally as if nothing ever happened. I’m scared that you’ll continue being so happy all the time that you wouldn’t need me at all. And I fu*king hate you for that.
Waiting for her to continue. Continues staring her.
“While I will be shattered. Devastated. I wouldn’t know what to do without you. You’ve been with me since forever and we have done everything together that I can’t imagine living alone anymore. You were there when I was at my lowest and when I couldn’t find comfort anywhere else. You are my backbone and I practically think of you all the time. *teary eyed* You’re the best person I’ve met in my life and I love you so much that I’m scared. I’m fu*king scared.
“Hey hey hey.. Where am I going? I’m here with you. I’ve been and I will be. Just because I don’t show it doesn’t mean I wouldn’t be affected by your absence. Why do you even think of these negative and silly things? Nobody is going anywhere. We are together and we will be together. Always!”
“That may seem silly to you but it means the world to me. That thought is just…just…so scary!”
“Horror is your favourite genre, isn’t it?” he said trying to cheering her up.
“In movies. Not in life.”
“And pray tell me, what is your favorite genre in life?”
“With a smile. You narcissist as*hole.”
“Ouch. That hurt.”
“I love you.”
*Hugging him tightly*
“You’re never going to leave me, right?”
“No, I’m never going to leave you. I will always be with you.”
“I love you too.. More than you love me..”
“Btw, don’t grow a beard and turn into a devdas, okay. Even if we are not together, I will always want you to be happy.”
She knew he was losing it. “I’m sorry. I know I shouldn’t think about that, but…”
“You can’t help it.”
Smiling, “This is what I like about you. I don’t have to tell you everything. You just understand me inside out.”
“Still you doubt me.”
“Not you. I trust you more than I trust myself. Fate it is that I doubt. It hasn’t been so kind to me.”
“It has give me to you.”
“That it has. And it can never be kinder than that.”
Grinning from ear to ear, “Man, I love you so so much!”
Thanking her stars, “Shut up and kiss me now!”
“As my lady says.”